"This love of life makes me weak at my knees" - The Kinks
that is how i want to feel ALL OF THE TIME! is that too much to ask? honestly, it probably is. life is a series of events, some good, some bad, some exciting, some dull. all i have wanted these past few months is an ADVENTURE. to me, this meant something "big." this "big" this is something i equated to being fantastic, life-altering.
as corny as it sounds, i realized that my life has been quite an adventure all this time. it has been fantastic. it has been life-altering. i made new friends, met new boys. i grew up, i stayed young, i laughed until i cried and i had so many important conversations that i even found myself talking about what good conversations they were.
basically, for the first time in my life, i realized that it was fine to fall down. to get scratched up, to get back up, to stay down, to laugh, to cry, to learn from it. things have not been perfect, not by any means. but lately i have been content. happy. and even when i'm not happy, i know i will be okay. the things that make you happy don't have to be new to be exciting all the time... you will probably run out of things. relish in the pleasure of all the little things that make you happy (and all the big things, too, of course.)
anyway, i'm just ranting because i can't sleep. don't mind me.
smell ya later,
p.s. i punched hannah in the boob today and continue to laugh at her expense.
5 years ago